Everybody knows that ethics and morals are very important in every day life. I’ve known this since before I entered kindergarten. You don’t steal, and you don’t lie. You’re kind to everyone and you treat all equally.
As I grew up, I obtained more and more ethics and morals. My ethics and morals basically run my life, there are things I will do and things I will never do.
What I will never, ever do in a million years is use abortion as a means of birth control. That’s my personal choice, when it comes to other people doing it, well that’s their personal choice. It’s their body, so they can do what they want. But my personal choice is to never use abortion as a means of birth control. The only way I would even remotely consider abortion is if I were to get raped.
But I didn’t get raped. I wasn’t stupid about it either, Booth and I have always used protection. Sometimes unplanned things just happened. So when I took a test two days ago and discovered two lines instead of one, I knew what I had to do.
Yep guys, I’m pregnant. Obviously you can see now why this post is private…I really don’t want my family knowing about it yet, not until I tell my dad. My mom already knows, and she wasn’t too happy about it – and that’s understanding really, I don’t blame her. Booth’s parents both know, as well as his step father. They weren’t exactly thrilled but his mom knows as well as anyone that sometimes accidents happen, and they all support us in what we’re doing.
Obviously, we have decided to keep it. Booth and I went to the doctor yesterday for bloodwork, and I’m roughly 3 or 4 weeks along. We still haven’t set up an ultrasound, but we will. We’re doing this the right way and taking all of the precautions and proper steps.
Ya, I’m scared shitless. I never pictured myself being a mother so quickly, especially not before I graduated college and worked for a couple of years to save money. I’ll be the first to admit that right now Booth and I are not financially able, but Booth has a job now and is going to super save. The best I can do for the future is stay in school, and that means not working as my school schedule won’t allow it.
So our plan is simple; we don’t really know what we’re doing. All we know is that we are keeping it, and I’m staying in school. Booth will still go to college, maybe a wee bit later than expected but he will still go. OSAP and student loans as well as his family will help us out financially while I stay at home with the baby and he goes to school.
So ya, are you shocked? Cause I am. I still can’t believe it. I’m not looking foward to telling my dad, I know he’ll be disappointed in me. I’m also not looking forward to telling my older sisters; I think I fear their reaction more so then my dads. I don’t want to lose any family because of this, especially when I really need them.