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An Announcement

I was going to keep this a secret for a while, but I’m terribly bad at secrets. It’s a proven fact. Especially about “exciting” things, I just can’t keep my flap closed. And since Matt is also having a horrible time keeping this secret, I figured…why not?

That’s right folks, two lines…we’re pregnant! Apparently, I’m Fertile Myrtle.

We decided in December that we were ready to add to our little family, so I finished up my BC cycle and went off it in January. Then we started “trying”. By “trying”, I of course mean we just did it a bunch of times, as per usual, and WHAMBAM. Pregnancy? Matt is going to buy me a Staples “that was easy” button and duct tape it to my belly, because…well, that was easy?

We found out February 5th, 2011. I went to a walk in clinic on Wednesday night and they confirmed it. I’m just two days shy of five weeks, and my estimated due date is October 16th, 2011. I am absolutely excited about having an October baby, and…dare I say it…but I’m hoping the baby will be born on October 21st, my dad’s birthday! I doubt that the doctors would let me go five days past my due date, but it’d be sweet to give him a birthday grandbaby!

I know that most women don’t breathe a word of their pregnancy until they are passed the 12th week point. The doctor at the walk in clinic was kind enough to remind me {every time he opened his mouth} that there is a 1 in 5 chance for miscarriage, and he was kind enough to tell me not to “tell everybody just yet”. Nice huh? Definitely doesn’t help calm my nerves at all about this whole pregnancy thing.  But the way I see it…either way, I’m going to blog about the results. I’m over the fear that telling people will “jinx” my pregnancy – I’m not even high risk for a miscarriage! Stressing about that isn’t good anyway. Besides, I spilled the beans about my pregnancy with Nolan just a mere days after finding out, and I was around 5 weeks then too.

We’ve alerted the troops {family} and some close friends, and now I’m alerting all of you. Deep breath.

I was going to wait until I was a little further along…but frankly? Keeping this a “secret” is pretty damn tiring. It’s happy news, so why not share it?! Not to mention, I’ve already “popped” a bit, and it’s already a little noticeable…

I didn’t look like that until about 20 weeks with Nolan! Crazy huh? I know, with your second you pop quickly so I’m trying not to get too offended by the fact that I can barely see my box when I sit down to pee and I’m only four {nearly five} weeks.

I’m super excited! This is our first “planned” pregnancy, but I feel as clueless as I did with Nolan! Seriously, it’s shocking just how much you forget about being pregnant until you’re pregnant again. I didn’t expect to be so exhausted {hence my lazy last couple of weeks}. I didn’t expect the dreams to start so early, either. I’m eating enough to feed a small village too. Thank goodness the nausea hasn’t set in! Although the smell {and look!} of fish is more than enough to turn my belly completely inside out. Of course, the look and smell of fish has always turned my stomach! Gross!!!

I’m also super impatient. How in the hell was I pregnant before? I’m impatient for my first ultrasound, to hear little bean’s heart beat, and to find out what sex little bean is. Boy or girl, it will most definitely be loved! Although I do have a secret desire for a girl, only because Matt says this is our LAST baby and I would like to have a daughter too. Boys are amazing, don’t get me wrong, but I’m hoping for that little girl – the outfits, the girly things, watching her be daddy’s little girl…so sweet! Plus it’s due time someone on Matt’s side had a girl!!! But if little bean happens to be a boy, then so be it! I’ll be just as happy with two little boys as I would be with a girl and a boy.

So, there you have it! There’s my big secret 😀 our big secret! Nolan’s known for quite some time. He keeps rubbing/tapping my belly and saying “baybeee!” So cute!

I have a feeling the next 9 months are going to fly by.

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A bunch of random updates

Alright; enough with the weather complaints. Winter is here, and it probably will be for quite some time – as much as I hate it, I don’t think my hate-on is going to make it disappear any sooner.

So yeah, it’s time for some random updates! I obviously need to snap out of my winter induced funk 😉

I didn’t really do much of anything today, besides watching the girls and hanging with my little man. The girls got dropped off at 7:45, and since Matt didn’t have class until later, he stayed inside with Nolan while I walked with J and T down to J’s bus. I love Tuesdays’ because I don’t have to worry about carting Nolan out in the cold.

I always wear my snow pants, my winter coat, my hat, my mitts and my scarf – but I always feel so awkward because there is another girl who waits at J’s bus stop. She’s in grade 7 or something, but she never wears any winter gear {aside from a winter coat}. It just reminds me of my middle school and high school days. I never wore any of that stuff because it just “wasn’t cool”. So am I suddenly “uncool” because I don’t want to freeze my ass off in -30 weather?

Whatever. The funny thing is, I don’t even care anymore.

So yeah; we basically spent the entire day inside, watching movies and playing with toys. Because that’s all there is to do around this stankin’ town in the winter time. I need to ask T’s mom to drop off her car seat on Tuesdays so we can at least go to the coffee group. It’ll give us one day a week when we can get out of the house, right? Even if I’m totally a hermit right now because of this weather.

But I’m getting incredibly bored of just colouring. So I need y’all to suggest some toddler friendly {and, more importantly, inexpensive} activities, since I’m far too uncreative at this moment to think of some on my own. I want to make homemade playdough, but I’m still searching out for a really good recipe. {If you have one, PLEASE give it to me!! I’m looking for an easy recipe, one that T can help me do and that doesn’t require a hell of a lot of ingredients…in relation: why the hell does tarter sauce have to be in playdough?!?!}.

Also: Nolan did a lot of super cute things today. For one: he napped. For the first time in like 2 days. It was fabulous! And even though he napped, he spent a majority of the afternoon cuddling with me on the couch under a warm blanket. He’s done that the last two days in a row, but I thought it was only because he had skipped out on his nap both days. But now I’m beginning to think that he is starting to enjoy cuddling with mama again, and that makes me so incredibly happy. 😀

He played quietly while I made dinner, and at one point when I peaked into the livingroom he was looking under the couch pointing and saying “CAT! HHAAHAHA CAT!” Sketch was trying to hide from him, and he was trying to play with her. Super cute.

Nolan ate his dinner like a champ, but kept demanding the soy sauce. At one point he threw quite the epic tantrum when I told him “you have enough soy sauce on your food”. Yes, that is apparently starting. Joy to the world, right!? After that he decided that he was done with eating, so I put him on the ground to play in the kitchen while I finished eating my dinner. He ran back and forth from the refrigerator to the washer with his little magnetic letters, screaming and giggling like a mad man. T’was hilarious!

Then it was bath time; I had the bathroom door closed and was running Nolan’s bath while Matt was in the livingroom with Nolan. They heard me start the bath and they both came running to the door and started knocking on it. Matt told Nolan to say “Mommy, I’m ready!” and Nolan totally screamed “READY!”

I let him into the bathroom, and he raced over to the tub saying “ready, ready!”. And even while I bathed him and, later dressed him, he kept saying “ready Mommy! Ready!” it was the cutest thing ever. “Ready” is such a cute word when it comes from his mouth!

Yeah, Nolan’s awesome! And even though it’s freakin’ cold out and I’m tired of snow, life is awesome. Because Nolan is in it. 🙂

Tomorrow is my “day off”. I’m heading to the gym for 9am, working out for a bit and then doing my Fit Fix Orientation. I was supposed to do that orientation tonight, but I totally forgot about it. No harm though, I’ll do it tomorrow 🙂 I’m going to try and do 20 minutes on the {sit down} bike, but I’ll stick to 15 minutes on the two ellipticals and the up-right bike. I don’t want to overdo it too much, considering I’ll be going to the gym on Thursday too {since I’m missing Friday}. Also: I’m going to try to shower at the gym. JDC gave me flip flops so I really don’t have an excuse. I just have to remember to pack a change of under hahha. It’s totally painfully obvious just how much of a novice I am at this whole “gym” thing.

T-minus three days until my date with the tattoo gun.

{P.S. How do you like that, two posts in like 10 minutes of each other. Guess I’m not as “cricket-y” as I thought! Sorry they sorta suck. I’m totally exhausted}

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Can it be Summer now?!

I am restless in this town. Happy, but restless. Perhaps it’s all this damn snow that’s making me feel restless…but, either way…I’m restless. I long for spring – for summer, because the roads will be clear and {slightly} more predictable, which means I’ll be able to make more trips to the places I want to go. I have a list that is literally a mile long of all the little places I want to take Nolan too.

I obviously want to go “down south” and visit my family and Matt family. I miss them all so much. I want to cuddle with my nephew. I miss that kid so much, and it really sucks that we’re so far away from him. I’d love to just drive five minutes for a play date with my sister, I love watching Xman and Nolan play together.

I want to take Nolan to the Toronto Zoo, the Science Center and Ontario Place. I want to take him to that new rec center in my old town that is apparently mint.

I want to spend some quality time with my grandparents, maybe at their trailer. I want to visit with my cousins, actually visit and spend some time with them {since the last time we got together ~ Christmas ~ I was super sick}.

I want to finally meet my little man D and see JD for the first time in like forever. Nine months? It’s ridiculous. I want to catch up with all the other old friends I haven’t seen in forever. I want to visit Elle and hit up museums and indoor play areas and parks and all that jazz.

I want to go on family day trips and to the beach and camping at Matt’s property. I want to be able to take Nolan outside to play for longer than 10 minutes. I want to go on walks down the trail, and teach Nolan how to toss rocks in the creek {with me there, of course}.

I want to be warm.

What are you looking forward to doing as soon as the snow melts?

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WEEEE!!!

Holy cow am I ever exhausted right now!! I’m at the holy-hyper part of exhaustion.

I kicked today’s ass, if I do say so myself. I woke up at 7am, got out of bed, got the little man and myself some breakfast and then got us both dressed. Before heading to the gym, I had to run a quick errand to pay our hydro bill. We were at the gym by 9:45am, and I actually found a parking spot up front! Usually, I have to park in the parking lot on the other side of the road – which I was dreading doing because today was freezing and it was my first day bringing Nolan to the gym with me.

I dropped Nolan off at the little daycare inside the gym and went to put my stuff in a locker. I was totally nervous about working out on my own but it wasn’t so bad! The only “bad” parts were not having someone there to distract me with conversation. I kept watching the clock, trying to power through my workout routine. My workout routine is basically 15 minutes on four of the cardio machines. I skipped the upright bike because my ass still hurt from last time and Matt made me promise I’d take it easier on myself. This is, after all, my first time exercising. I listened to my music and just zoned out, trying to get into it and enjoy the whole “working out” thing. As odd as it sounds…I didn’t enjoy it until I started to sweat. I did feel a bit discouraged by the lack of “calories” I was burning {basically 60 per machine, so only 180 calories}.

But at this point, I’m not doing this whole gym/workout thing to burn tons of calories and lose weight. I’m doing it because I want more energy, and I want to feel better about myself. This is only the beginning, after all, and I’m still a novice.

Anyway, so I powered my way though my workout and then went back to the change room. I was going to shower, but honestly? Public showers totally intimate me. I also didn’t have any flip flops. And stuff. So I skipped the shower, got dressed and went to pick up my little man.

The daycare ladies told me that Nolan was such a little sweetheart. He was gentle with the other babies – most of them significantly younger than he is – and didn’t get upset when any of the other babies cried. Most babies get upset when other babies cry, I guess. Not Nolan! He actually went over and tried to help cheer up each crying baby. How sweet!!! I’m so proud of my little bug! I definitely won’t be nervous about leaving him in the daycare anymore 😉 he’s a champ!

I decided to go to Winners and see if I could buy a sports bra. I forgot the reason why I don’t normally go into Winners: I freaking love it. I spent a ridiculously long time in the purse section, the home decor section, and the kitchen section. I found a lamp that I totally fell in love with and really wanted to buy but didn’t because I went in for a sports bra, but if it’s there when we get some extra money I’m going to buy it. It was royal purple with a light purple design on it – it would look great in our bedroom.

I did buy a sports bra, but I couldn’t try it on because I had Nolan with me, so I “guessed” on my size. I always forget when bra shopping that the sizes are based on waist I mean ribcage {I assure you I do not have titties down to my waist…yet, anyway}, not “cup” size. I bought a small sports bra. HAHAHA. I can’t even do up the damn thing. While my “cup” size is small, my waist ribcage size is definitely not. So I have to return it and see if I can get one in a bigger size. In addition to the bra, I bought two reusable water bottles for Matt and I and a plate with two compartments for Nolan.

Then I decided to take Nolan out for lunch, since it was already past his regular lunch time and running into naptime. We had A&W at the mall. I know, I’m horrible…I basically “undid” everything I may have achieved at the gym. But it was worth it; I love lunch dates with Nolan. He cracks me up!

After lunch, I quickly jetted to my SMIL’s to pick up some mail, then we headed home. I guess Nolan snoozed for the 10 minute drive, and woke up when we pulled into the drive way. Then he refused to nap – for a second day in a row. I gave it a fair shot too, but all he did was run back and forth in his crib and jump all around in it.

It really sucked, because I was so hoping to get in a nap myself before the girls arrived. But hey, you win some you lose some right? So I went and got my little jumping bean from his crib and we came out into the livingroom. I was so feeling lazy so I turned on the TV and laid down on the couch. Guess who joined me a few moments later?

I must say, these cuddles made up for all the frustration I was feeling for not getting a nap!

So, yeah, that was our day! It was pretty nice. It would have been better if I could have seen JD in person 😦

AND GUESS WHAT?!

I’m getting a tattoo on Friday!!!

WEEEE!

I’m so totally excited!!!

And no, you can’t hear what it’s going to be because it’s a SECRET until the time of. Except for those people I told already, you can know. Everybody else has to wait for the pictures 🙂

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It’s someone’s birthday today!

Today is my best friend JD‘s birthday! She is 22 years old. I’ve known JD for a really long, long time. Like, 8 or so years. I was going to write a post on our friendship and everything, but JD already did that and I don’t want to copy 😉

Instead, I’ll share a few of my favourite memories of JD with you:

  • Going to the sandbanks with JD and my family, while I was {temporarily} in a wheelchair and having her push me down a hill and then hearing her screaming as she chased after me because she thought I was going to land in the creek or something LOL.
  • When we went “fishing” in the creek and my dog Morgan {who was a little iddy bitty puppy at the time} fell in the creek. JD, who is terrified of water, jumped in to save him. He thanked her countless times by humping her pillow whenever she slept over. HAHHA. Nothing says “thanks” like…nevermind.
  • All the times that JD would sleepover at my house to keep me company after surgeries, and we’d spend the entire weekend in the family room watching lame movies, drinking TONS of pop, eating ketchup chips, and going on AOL chats lol.
  • All those lame school dances we went to haha.
  • Grade 8 grad, and “sharing” a date because we sort of “shared” that boyfriend {as in, he courted us both SICKOS. We were far too young to even think of doing the nasty, let alone “share” the dude LMAO!}
  • Our “magickal” phase lmfao.
  • Grade 12 prom 🙂
  • When JD came up to visit me at college, and we got super wasted accidentally.
  • JD’s 19th birthday…and the hilarious festivities that followed haha. I still wish I knew what happened to my then-cell phone…
  • Glow in the dark miniputting {we need to do that again, biotch!}
  • The first time she met my son ❤
  • The text messages, FB chats, and Twitter @’s.
  • The thousands of laughs we’ve shared throughout it all.

Like any relationship, ours has had it’s ups and downs. We’ve been through a lot together, and we’ve had our fair share of drama. BUT, JD is like a sister, and even when we “breakup” we always creep each other because we care legitimately about what’s going on in one another’s life. She has a son now, and I’ve never met him and it breaks my heart that I haven’t. I want to scoop him up in my arms and kiss those chubby baby cheeks! I wish JD and I lived closer to one another, so that we could have sleepovers with the babies. I wish I could just walk down the street and help her out when she needs it, and vice versa.

Even though a lot of distance separates us, I still consider her to be one of my best, closest friends. I tell that bitch everything, even things I shouldn’t {snort}.

So, Happy Birthday, my dear friend. I hope you have a wonderful day. I only wish I was there to take you shopping or to get your nails did or something 😦

Miss you a lot.

xoxoxo

 

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Cutest Little Cowboy in the West…I mean North

My awesome friend Caitlin and her husband send us a package today, full of goodies for Nolan and I. I’ve only pulled out a few things from the {giant} box, because I got side tracked by these bad boys!

Aren’t they totally rad? Nolan now has his own pair of cowboy boots! He absolutely loves them and has been dancing around in them for the last 20 minutes.

Howdy Partner! I’m just walking around in my super rad boots!

Need help moving this box, ma’am? I’m a cowboy, you know.

Rootin’ tootin’ cowboy boots!

Care to join me square dancin’ ma’am?

These are so fun!

Little cowboy heartbreaker {those jeans SLAY me! so cute! Also from Caitlin!}

Pleasure dancin’ with ya ma’am!

So, yes…cute overload, am I right?! I absolutely love those jeans on him. They’re from The Children’s Place and I absolutely love the quality. Much better than Nolan’s Walmart jeans…they are thicker and more durable. Plus, the belt loops are large enough for the belt he got for Christmas, should he need it {but he doesn’t because they fit perfectly}.

All he needs now is a little cowboy hat {which we’re keeping our eyes peeled for!}. Matt has decided that we are totally buying Nolan a Woody action figure this weekend, just because we both think he’d love it {since he loves Toy Story and talking to Woody on his Toy Story couch}.

These boots bring back a lot of funny memories for Matt. When he was a little kid, he had a pair of cowboy boots much like these ones {only his were powder blue, if I remember correctly from the pictures Kim – his mom – has} and he was completely obsessed with them. He wore them every where, even when they were much to small for his feet, and wouldn’t accept any “new” cowboy boots as a replacement for the outgrown ones.

I wish I had a picture of little boy Matt wearing his blue cowboy boots, because that’d just be adorable!

So thank you, yet again Caitlin, Matt and your sweet baby boy who has outgrown these awesome boots and clothes!

Note to my readers: See, my apartment isn’t ALWAYS obsessively clean. During the day when Nolan is up and playing, it’s a freakin’ disaster. Especially if Matt was the one playing with him while I slept in. Matt and Nolan = messes of gigantic proportions.

P.S. Today Caitlin’s husband Matt leaves for his deployment, and will be gone for a year. I don’t know how they both do it, but I’m entirely grateful for the sacrifices that Caitlin and her family make. It can’t be easy, in fact I can only imagine how difficult it is. So if you could send some prayers, positive vibes and good juju towards Matt and his fellow soldiers, and strength towards Caitlin {although she has bucket loads of her own}, that’d be greatly appreciated.

And Caitlin, I’m here for ya girly. When you need someone to chat with, or rant with, you know where to find me.

xoxo

Jess

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Tuesday Cuteness!

Last week, I was on fire with posting literally three times a day. I know, I’ve posted 3 times today, but it’s different…the need to write feverishly without clause has sort of subsided…for now. I probably should have saved some of those posts for this week, because I’m certainly not feeling as…wordy. I suppose that’s a good thing. I’ve spent less time on the computer, writing, and more time cleaning my house and just…playing.

It’s been bitterly cold the last few days {I’ve complained about it enough though}, so Nolan and I haven’t really gotten outside. And that’s okay, I’m not worried. We’ve been having tons of fun inside, building forts and play puzzles, reading books and even folding laundry. Nolan absolutely loves folding laundry!

Today I had the girls, and after T and I got back from walking J to catch her bus to school {Matt stayed home with Nolan so I didn’t have to bundle him up}, we rented Toy Story 3 because I’ve been dying to see it. I loved it! It’s the perfect ending to the 12 year trilogy I love. I honestly really need to buy Toy Story 3 and How to Train Your Dragon because I loved them both. Nolan did too! He especially loves the Toy Story movies. I’m going to need to seriously keep my money away from Walmart and away from buying Nolan the Woody and Buzz action figures because that’s a little unpractical and the only reason why I really want to buy them are so I can play with them ~ Nolan could actually care less whether or not he has them. That’s got to be the coolest part of having a kid, getting to play with toys again. But yeah, very unpractical…especially since I priced them out at Christmas and holy crap nearly 50 bucks for an action figure? WHAT?

Anyways, I took a couple of super adorable Nolan videos that I am happy to share 🙂

There he is eating an apple like a big kid for the first time ever {pictures of said “milestone” can be found here}. I honestly love how he squishes his nose when he takes a bite. So cute!

I took that one tonight, after Nolan had his bath. He and Sketch played “peek-a-boo ATTACK” for like 15 minutes. Nolan never got tired of the game, but Sketch got very bored with it and sauntered off to the kitchen to stuff her fatty puma face.

Nolan’s giggles seriously light my entire world up. I love how happy he is, all the time! Even when he’s being a brat, he’s still got a huge happy grin on his face.

I love it!

So yes, that was our day! Now that my little man is in bed, I’m watching a re-run of Glee and killing time before Teen Mom 2 starts! Tomorrow I don’t have the girls, so Nolan and I are going to have a lovely just the two of us day {with Matt in the morning, since he doesn’t have classes until 11am}. Yay for Wednesdays!

Hope you all had a Happy Tuesday!

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