According To My BlackBerry {8}

This week according to my BlackBerry….

“Look Ma! I can fit my whole fist in my mouth!” …well, nearly…

Someone stole mama’s sweater…

Nolan is obsessed with his diaper pail.

Just so you know, RIGHT after I took this picture Nolan plugged his nose like he does when he smells something unpleasant. haha!

Nolan rocks a pretty epic mohawk.

Nolan playing ❤

His new favourite toy the other morning was a wooden spoon. Kids huh?

Nolan and Sketch hanging out ❤

I don’t know what’s up with my hair, but Matt is hot 😀

Awkward family photo for the win! Love Nolan’s face in this one ❤

I absolutely LOVE Nolan’s face in this one too haha! AWESOME! Priceless!

In summary: kids are awesome. Especially mine 😉

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A {Very Sad} Letter to BlackBerries {specifically mine}

Dear BlackBerry:

I love you. I’ve loved you since the first time I held you in the Bell store, not even two months ago. You were far prettier and faster than my old BlackBerry, and you had wireless capabilities. I treat you like a queen, you practically sit on a royal cushion day after day. The kind of treatment you get is actually quite ridiculous.

And yet, randomly, you refuse to lock. I now am that person who butt calls everyone. You refuse to ring, no matter what setting you’re on. You refuse to sound the alarm should I set it. I don’t know what I ever did to wrong you, to hurt you…but you’re hurting me by acting up so quickly into our relationship. I thought we were meant to be! I even paid extra for your pretty self! But now you mock me by not working.

A girl needs a lock button, and a girl needs to be able to hear her phone should it ring {or the alarm, should it go off}. I’m worried about our future together…if this is happening just two months into our relationship…well, I have reason to worry. Obviously, I now have to take you all the way in to a Bell store and send you off for repairs. But I’m worried those repairs won’t fix the future issues, I’m worried that as soon as your warranty wears out, you will fall to the same fate my last BlackBerry did. I’m worried all the issues I’ll have with you will cause me to go literally insane.

You know, I renewed my contract with Bell for another three years to get you. I thought for sure that BlackBerry had improved their phones, since everyone else I talked to had no issues with it. But alas, here we are…you’re not ringing, nor are you locking. I butt dialed six people already today. Luckily they were all Matt, but still. You didn’t get dropped, you didn’t get thrown, you didn’t get left out in the freezing cold of my car. You are treated like a celebrity. I’m beginning to think you’ve got Lindsay Lohan’s personality: despite all the allowances you have, you’re still a drunken mess.

I hope that when I take you in for repairs, it solves all of our issues together. Otherwise, I’m going to have to replace you again. Only this time? I’ll replace you with an iPhone. Yeah, I went there.

Love,
Your owner with the broken-heart:
Jess

P.S. I really don’t want an iPhone, I want you, but I want and need you to work properly. We’re in this together, for three years.

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Bad Mood Bear

I am in a bad mood today. I’m stressed, anxious, and exhausted. I’ve had far too many late nights over the past little while and needless to say…they’ve caught up with me! Today has kicked my ass and then some, and despite my nap this afternoon I’m still dragging ass and grouchy.

I barely got any sleep last night, between Nolan’s sleep crying and my back. My back was causing me murderous pain, probably because of the way I was sitting during our evening TV watching. So from 2am-3am, I tossed and turned and whined. I ditched my pillow even. Finally I fell asleep, but it was NOT peaceful.

Then my morning started off with the walk-in-clinic “re-dial” game. I wanted to book an appointment for myself and Nolan. The walk-in-clinic we usually go to opens at 1pm and at 9pm you can call and book an appointment for that day. Monday mornings are always rat races, I played the “re-dial” game for literally half an hour. When I finally got through, I tried to book an appointment. I gave the receptionist my name and she instantly interrupted me.

“You owe us for a foot clinic you missed in May. We won’t be able to see you until you pay the $70 charge.” this was said in an icy, short tone {after I was interrupted}.

“Ok…but I don’t have $70 today…” was my response, because I don’t. I was about to ask if I could still be seen with a promise to pay this Friday, but didn’t get far at all because I was again cut off.

“We won’t be seeing you until you pay the $70 charge”.

Ok then.

I was deeply irritated because this foot clinic thing is bogus. I signed up for it, yes, but I never received a call. {Who knows, maybe I did but at the time we were living with Matt’s dad & step-mom, I often didn’t get calls}. I guess I just forgot and assumed they weren’t doing it since I never got the call.

And to me, $70 seems VERY excessive for a missed foot clinic appointment, and the receptionist shouldn’t have had a bitchy tone with me. You catch more bees with honey, not vinegar.

Obviously I’m going to pay this fine, despite the fact that I think its WAY too much for a missed appointment AND despite the fact that they never clarified that “missing” their foot clinic would result in a fee. But I’m still mad about it.

So that put me in a foul mood from the get go. Mostly because I’m feeling insanely guilty for the amount of unnecessary I spent in the last month that shouldn’t have been spent. The tattoo, my hairdo, the three times I went out for lunch with Nolan, the pizza we didn’t have to order, and the 26er of vodka I didn’t need to buy are all weighing heavily on my mind. The fact that we’re tapped until Friday because I slipped up so much also weighs heavily on my conscious.

Throughout it all, Matt isn’t angry with me. Despite the fact if the tables were turned *I* would undoubtedly be infuriated with him. But I don’t let him make mistakes like that, so why do I let myself?

I’m just having one of those days where I need to pout and feel sorry for myself just because I know I screwed up. I know I should have been smarter about our money. I really don’t think I’m to blame for the whole missed foot clinic thing, but I also don’t think they’re entirely too blame either. It just sucks. Especially since I’ve been in several times since May with Nolan and they never once mentioned this fee to me. Or it would have been paid by now {because I usually don’t suck THIS much with our money}.

I still have another four hours to get through before I can fall into bed and call it a night.

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So, I’m Lazy.

I’m going to do a post in bullets, because I’m lazy. It will also be full of random crap nobody cares about. You’re welcome.

  • We just got back from Nat’s house for brunch; it was yummy.
  • Before we left, I was running around with my head cut off trying to find Nolan’s other winter boot. He’s somehow lost it, and it’s missing. So he wore his cowboy boots to brunch because I couldn’t waste any more time looking for it.
  • I skipped SOS this week because I didn’t step out, or bother to even get dressed. I KNOW RIGHT? I’m lazy.
  • And also sore. My back hurts. I blame lifting children over snow banks and pulling Nolan in his sled.
  • I got to have bacon today and it was awesome.
  • After brunch, we all had a 15 minute conversation about my cat, because she’s awesome.
  • I actually got to snuggle my little nephew, Aaron, because I’m not dripping snot or sick. SURPRISINGLY. Usually I’m sick every time we visit Nat and Darren. I don’t know why.
  • It’s snowing again and I’m less than happy about it. In fact, I’m really pissed. Yesterday was so warm I was outside with just a jacket on. I for sure thought spring was around the corner. Stupid mother nature and her stupid tricks.
  • I’ve already eaten all my Lindor chocolates. They never last long in the house.
  • My tattoo is looking amazing. Like, straight up gold. I love it!
  • I need to have a “girls night” soon, only I lack the girls. They’re all far away from me. Sadface.

Also: this picture of Nolan makes me melt.

Yay for lazy cuddles and midday jammies.

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I want to rename today “SatALLday”

Nolan actually let me sleep in this morning! Usually he starts trying to wake up at 6am, then he’ll fall back asleep until 7am and insist upon getting up. I didn’t get in until super late last night, and therefore didn’t get to bed until after 12am, so I was totally expecting Nolan to wake up super early as punishment for my staying up late {because he usually does}. But no! I slept peacefully without interruption until about 8am. Then my internal clock beeped and I was up, but Nolan slept an additional 20 minutes.

He had toast for breakfast because I literally had no counter space free. Matt is like incapable of washing dishes when I’m not home. If I cook dinner and ask him to wash them, he has absolutely no problem, but if I’m not home they will sit on the counter. Matt doesn’t see messes the way I see messes, he doesn’t get anxious and ticked off to see a bunch of dishes on the counter the way I do. I’m irritated with him because he said he’d do most of them when I looked at the heaping pile of dishes last night with sad eyes. None of them were washed. Just the stuff that I had washed before I left for my tattoo appointment. So, yeah. Irritated.

Matt is ice fishing today. Saturdays are when he gets out of the house with his boys. He keeps begging me to come and bring Nolan, but I know that Nolan and I will not last out in the ice shack. He claims we will because they have a heater and it’s super hot, but I just don’t want to go with Nolan so little. He’s a trouble maker and a half, and I don’t see him cooperating around the ice holes and the heater. Plus, they’re all Matt’s college friends: kidless. So I’m sure having a toddler there would be fun at first, but grow tiring. Especially when Nolan needs to nap or eat. Maybe next year though!

Instead, I’d much rather spend today sitting on my butt relaxing, snuggling with my little man, maybe catching up with a few loads of laundry, finishing the rest of the dirty dishes, and building some epic Megablock towers. Which is why I’m totally renaming today “SatALLday” 😉

Nolan hasn’t even noticed my tattoo yet!!! I’m not sure if this is a good thing {because this means he hasn’t tried to grab it or hit it or scratch it off} or a sad thing {because HELLO, it’s for him}. I guess I’m kinda glad he hasn’t noticed, because it’s still tender and sore. Oh well, I’m sure now that I wrote that, he’ll notice.

Also; I totally failed at taking Nolan to the EYC like I said I would. Totally not my fault though! Nolan let us both sleep in, and then there was the mountain of dishes I had to wash, then I had to eat my own breakfast and by the time all that was said and done, there was no point in going to the drop in play group. Oh well…there’s always next week!

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Fresh Ink

My tattoo appointment was at 5pm, so I went a little early – just because I wasn’t sure where the shop was located. I found it easily enough, but couldn’t find parking so I ended up parking at Tims and walking down. When I got in, the receptionist/assistant told me that the tattoo artist {M} was just finishing up with a client and he wouldn’t be long at all.

Well, 2 hours later he finished up with the client. I would have left for a bit and gotten food but every single time I asked she told me “any minute now” so I didn’t want to leave and make him late. It was fine, whatever…the only downer part was that I was starving and could have gone for eats several times.

Any who, so 3 hours and 45 minutes after I arrived {I KNOW RIGHT} we finally got to work on my tattoo. It took so long because M had to set up the station and answer a billion phone calls because the receptionist left. No big deal, M was super awesome and friendly too.

I actually really loved getting my forearm tattooed. Like, it didn’t hurt at all. It felt good. Except for the shading, that was slightly painful.

So, in summary: the tattoo artist, M, was awesome but I could have gone without the 3 hour and 45 minute wait.

But the results are beautiful.

“Nolan Daniel
23.04.09”

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Webcam Dino Toddler {& Mama}

Nolan decided he wanted to have a little webcam photo sesh before bed last night 🙂 He wanted to show off his dino PJs!

Lately Nolan’s been obsessed with dinosaurs. He calls them “rawr’s” lol.

Man he slays me.

P.S. This mama is getting tattooed today! WEE!

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